“Intuition is seeing with the soul.” ~ Dean Koontz
When I was a kid, I would stand in the shower in the morning and hear these voices in my head. They were quiet, slow, slurred, and they scared the shit out of me. I mean, people who heard voices were crazy, weren’t they?
So I would shake my head violently, as if I could shake them out of my brain. And it seemed to work. But when I got quiet, was by myself, they would come back. It was always slurred, hard to understand and frightening. So the only solution was to eliminate being by myself and avoid being quiet at all times.
Running away from myself
As an introvert, this wasn’t good for me, but I certainly didn’t understand that when I was running away from myself. Plus, it worked well with my mission to escape home as much as possible.
It wasn’t until later, about two decades or so, that these voices came back to me in full force. And this time, as fearful as I was, I listened. And the more I listened, the more clear it became. And weirdly, it knew things.
And if I listened, if I followed the advice, things worked out remarkably well.
It took me awhile to figure out that this was my intuition. But once I did, holy god, did it become an integral part of my life. And now, I feel like we’re close. I have written on other blogs on how to develop your intuition, and I truly believe everyone has intuition. Some people just have better access to it.
The thing I have realized recently though, is that not everyone’s intuition works the same. I can hear mine like literal voices in my head. But talking to other friends, it can be more of a feeling, a nudge, a light over one thing and not another.
Habit and comfort zones
There are a lot of articles out there about intuition, but what I think is important beyond just developing your intuition is trusting it. It is my word of the year after all.
There have been things that have occurred this year that I had no desire to deal with, but my intuition was pushing me toward. And so instead of sticking with my habits, I decided I would go with it.
I haven’t wanted to engage with people on social media about race. I haven’t wanted to tell my boss that my work can be boring. I haven’t wanted to re-pot plants on my day off. But I have done them all and with surprisingly beautiful results.
I used to talk about getting out of the habit of habit, but it turns out habit isn’t the culprit. Some habits are helpful. I guess that’s why we judge them as good. The culprit is not listening to the intuition when it nudges you out of your comfort zones.
I think that intuition is your connection to the divine. I believe that we all have one, as all of us are part of the great big whole. And finding yours, connecting with it, is part of your work on this planet.
So how do you connect with yours when you don’t know where to start? Here are four questions to help.
What’s your strongest sense?
Do you favor one sense over the other? Is your sense of smell really intense? Start with a sense that you are comfortable with being nuanced already. If you are a sommelier, then definitely your sense of taste.
Then start paying attention to the little changes that happen within those senses throughout the day. Do you smell something that no one else seems to notice? Pay attention. The more attention you give, the more it will start to “speak” to you.
What super-power did you believe you had as a kid?
Were you convinced you could walk through walls when you were little? Maybe your physical perception of touch is where intuition speaks to you. Are you physically uncomfortable in certain situations? Does your stomach do loops before something shady is about to go down? Start trying to notice these things.
When I was little I was convinced I had super-hearing, but all the tests in school told me it was normal. Turns out as I got older, I learned I am clairaudient. So yeah, in a way, my super-hearing was there all along. It just wasn’t interested in showing up for any tests.
What do you want? What are you ready for?
I had always thought I wanted to see ghosts until I heard one visit me in the middle of the night. I kept my eyes closed and begged for it to go away. Of course, part of the reason my power scared me because religious leaders taught me that it is wrong. And while I didn’t think I still believed that, it obviously stuck with me.
Your intuition will come through the path of least resistance. If you don’t allow it to talk to you in one way because you’re not ready for it, it will try another angle. So consider what you would be comfortable with. Are you interested in a conversation with voices or would that just be too much?
Give your intuition an in, a way to touch you, so that it knows it’s welcome.