I wrote an open letter awhile back to folks who wanted to leave the United States if Trump was elected. One of the reasons I cited to not leave was heartbreak from afar. And after only one week, I can promise that is absolutely true. But there is more. Weird feelings I never considered have surfaced, and I think they’re worth sharing.
Like catching a glimpse of a flag and thinking it was American. Unlikely in Deutschland.
I hope you find my perspective worthwhile, and I would love to hear other Americans’ experiences living abroad during this time.[click to continue…]
Even though I don’t like to hate on a whole year, I am guilty of blaming 2016 for things it had no part in. For taking Prince and George Michael, the former of which I mourned for days, crying like I lost a friend, the latter I am still reeling from denial.
And then of course there was the U.S. election. If the people of the U.S. ever needed evidence that our system is governed by the rule, “He who has the most money wins”, this was it.
I stood outside the door of my alternate universe, smoking what felt like my fifth cigarette in a row.
Inside was Christmas evening (not the eve before Christmas but rather that strange bookend of time after the holiday morning where all the gifts are opened, videos are watched and leftovers have been eaten). The man I would sometimes date had invited me to his parents house, which at first I had balked at, being I had no intention of serious involvement. However he assured me that his friends would also be there in the giant suburban home at the end of a cul-de-sac. I had visions of cannonballs into an indoor pool, beers and BBQ, so invited one of my friends, Jennifer, as well.
I don’t see why this can’t be a holiday-themed pool party?
When we arrived, the cul-de-sac was more like the edge of a field, which gave the freezing wind a running start in taking our breath away. The split-level home we parked in front of didn’t do my imagination justice and frankly, where had I gotten the idea there would be a pool? Not a whiff of chlorine lived in the neighborhood. [click to continue…]
It’s the holiday season and booze is everywhere. I am feeling blessed I made it through to this point in 2016 without a relapse. It has been a really tough year for a lot of us. (RIP Prince) This is the year I realized that just because I re-up for another year of lucid life, […]
A lot has happened lately, and it has been difficult for me to understand what I am feeling. After returning from a visit to Yosemite and California a few weeks ago, I realized I needed to write something for a reading I had coming up for St. Nikolas, which was last night. What I ended up […]
On Friday I was part of an amazing reading for the latest edition of the Freiburg Review. It was held at the Museum of Contemporary Art, and we traveled throughout the exhibition listening to different readers as we went. And while I don’t think my reading was recorded, I will say that it was spectacular. The […]
After about six months of riding my bike to work 34 km every day(that’s 21 miles for you non-metric folks), my husband said to me, “Now, you’re a legit cyclist.” While I would say many of my friends would have called me that years ago, most of my friends don’t work in the bike industry, […]
I was out late on a Saturday night last weekend and saw a group setting up lawn chairs for their sober night out. There is apparently a group here in Freiburg that encourages people who it is possible to have fun on the weekend without drinking. If I am ever downtown again, I will get the […]
Awhile back I wrote about how I was working on a project I am really excited about. I live next to a center for asylum seekers, and Germany has been in the news a lot throughout the last year for the number of people it’s accepted from war-torn countries. Why not interview some of these […]
“Intuition is seeing with the soul.” ~ Dean Koontz When I was a kid, I would stand in the shower in the morning and hear these voices in my head. They were quiet, slow, slurred, and they scared the shit out of me. I mean, people who heard voices were crazy, weren’t they? So I […]
Before I started my new job, I thought my advice for staying sober during vacation was enough for anyone looking to maintain a lucid outlook during a business trip. Sure, there were a few differences, the most notable being that you are there for work, rather than play, but wouldn’t that make it easier? Turns […]