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Why so serious?


2010
03.21

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Yesterday was the first day of Spring. The Equinox. Y’know, balance of light and dark and what-have-you. Usually I come up with some elaborate celebration that involves fires and ceremony and all that.

This year I didn’t plan anything. Not purposely, mind you, but because it kinda snuck up on me. What ended up happening? French toast breakfast, motorcycle to the lake, hang out in the forest all day, ride back through the mountains, glorious BBQ chicken dinner, fall into bed exhausted.

(A special thank you to Sante, who rode all over the mountains, through trees and on bumpy roads just to make me happy. Well, and I think he likes it too. You rule.)

I’ve never been one for planning, unless it’s something I think is really important. But lately I’ve been learning that importance is relative. And you should never take yourself too seriously.

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The barter system works for more than just goods and services: Let’s trade ideas!


2009
07.31

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Yesterday my roommate came in with an armful of avocados from our neighbor’s tree. Last week another neighbor stopped by with a basket of strawberries. This is pretty much the standard around here. We all have an excess of some vegetable or fruit and we just trade. I’m pretty much in love with it, mostly because it seems so much more natural than going to buy these things from a store.

I knew this area was a big growing community. One of the biggest berry suppliers in the country is here. The strawberry festival is this weekend. The thing is, I think this land isn’t just about growing food. I knew that moving was going to be a giant adventure and, at times, difficult. But this soil is just encouraging me to grow.

Of course, being Rebecca, I have to pick this apart. I wonder, how do we grow when we’re aware we should be growing? It’s always easier to look back at a time and say, “Wow, I really grew from that experience.” But what about living in the moment and trying to grow in the moment?

I spend time everyday writing, reading, working out, job searching, meditating, cooking, and trying to learn something new. Yet I wonder if this is really what helps me grow. I feel like these are all things I have been doing for awhile. Is it possible to try to grow mentally and spiritually? Or is this something that comes out of all the actions and brain activities during a point in our lives?

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Don’t worry. Be happy. Seriously.


2009
02.18

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My friend recently joined AAA. The cost of a year’s membership is less than one tow and includes a lot more than that. And when you live in Minnesota, it seems reasonable to me.

There are, however, a few things that seem less reasonable to me:

  • Insurance on your cell phone that you pay monthly and then pay a deductible when you use it…and you may only use it a certain number of times.
  • Protection the cable company offers in case you have to have a technician come out and service your wires or equipment you rent from them.
  • Warranties available for additional purchase on electronics (read: Best Buy)
  • Credit protection for purchase on credit cards, checking and savings accounts

    While I try not to give in, there are times when I wonder: Should I have these things? What if my credit card gets stolen? What if my iPod quits working? What if I drop my cell phone in a toilet?

    What-if land is a dangerous place to go. I consider it a necessary place to visit, like Washington D.C., but I definitely wouldn’t want to live there. Constantly processing outcomes that may never happen is a sure recipe for living with fear and worry.

    There is a Swedish proverb that says “Worry gives a small thing a big shadow.” If we let go of our fear and worry and live in the moment, most of those outcomes we were processing will never occur.

    And really, would it be so bad if on occasion they did occur? I live for the day my cell phone runs out of power and I can’t be reached. Imagine a week!

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I thought Mel Gibson was convincing in "Conspiracy Theory"


2008
07.25

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July 24, 2008 – Thursday

Today I drank a Coca Cola at work. I was trying to explain my forbidden love affair with it when my friend asked me if I would like to eat an entire cup of brown sugar because, really, that’s all it is. I responded that I thought it was high-fructose corn syrup. Her eyes got wide and with a very serious look she said, “Corn is so horrible. Corn is the root of all evil.”

After one of the best laughs I have had in a long time — you know the kind where there are tears streaming down your face, your stomach aches and you’re gasping for air — I asked what the hell she could possibly mean. She proceeds to tell me about a PBS documentary (called King Corn I believe) that she saw. It told of all the ills of corn and how there was some sort of marketing shift in the ’70s to brainwash all of us into thinking it was good. “It’s man made,” she said solemnly.

This launched me back into a place I haven’t been in a while. How is it possible to be socially concious when there are so many things wrong with the world? How much of it is hype and how much is truly threatening?

I like to adopt the Mark Twain way of looking at things: “I’ve known a lot of troubles in my time — and most of them never happened.” Resolve not to worry. I’m not saying we shouldn’t all have our causes we truly believe in, but I think it is too easy to get overwhelmed by all that could be wrong. And when that happens nothing gets done.

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So Hannah Montana is kinda like cupid?


2008
06.23

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June 22, 2008 – Sunday

Some things I did today:

-Bought a bike helmet that may or may not have a Disney character on it. And I like it.
-Threw out the gazpacho I made. Maybe cold soup isn’t such a good idea.
-Told a big dude to cool it at the gym when he impatiently asked me after every set if I was done with my machine…it’s Sunday man!

At one point I would have felt bad or said I was sorry about these things. No thanks. Not anymore.

I’m not sure if I grew up apologizing for everything I did or if it is a habit I picked up along the way, but I’ve decided to stop. Partially because I know a few people who do it and it makes me uncomfortable. But mostly because I think it’s a bad idea to be sorry all of the time.
Sometimes we’re not sure what we’re apologizing for, which is just plain stupid. Other times we’re not sorry and that makes us liars as well. And it takes away from the times when we truly are sorry because people don’t know whether we said it out of habit or if we actually mean it.
Whatever the case, it’s something that’s nice to be free of and it makes me wonder what other little habits we all have that put more weight on us than we realize.
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