Posts Tagged ‘the artists way’

New things are natural in a new year


2012
01.09

2012 has been with us now for about nine days, and I didn’t think I really had resolutions, per se. I like to just do things when they seem natural, but it turns out I’ve been inspired by this time of year.

    • Be nice. In my war against my inner criticit’s occurred to me that in some cases it’s good to have a critical or judgmental side. So instead of trying to destroy it, I’m thinking it just needs some new vocabulary. Every day in my journal I’m writing five things I like about myself.My 5 things   1. My hair is pretty.  2. I make delicious pancakes.  3. I listen to my doctor (most of the time).  4. I’m a good friend.  5. I follow my dreams.
    • Appreciate the moments. I take loads of photos, but most of them sit in a file on a computer and maybe end up on Facebook. This year, I’m printing those photos! Well, not all of them because some look like this:

      nobeyaki steam

      This was Nobeyaki Udon. It's a bit steamy isn't it?

But there are some that are great; it’s not really about how good the photo is, but how awesome the moment was. For this week, I’m having trouble choosing between this:

Big Sur New Year's Day moto ride

and this:

California Academy of Sciences with Sante's brother and sister

California Academy of Sciences with Sante's brother and sister

I’ll probably stick with the second one because even though it’s not about the photo, that shadow makes me a little bonkers.

  • Try new things.  I belong to a really cool Facebook group called Thirty Day Challenges. This is a way to try new and sometimes outrageous things. Some people have survived off of $200 worth of groceries in a month for a family of four. Others try volunteering a set number of hours throughout the month.

    It’s very non-judgmental and kinda fun. And it’s how I cultivated the habits of drying all my clothes naturally, composting and hopefully after this month, eating more raw fruits and veggies.

    kiwi shrimp lime relish

    This is definitely on the menu. (Click for the recipe.)

  • Don’t leave things unfinished. I feel like The Artist’s Way came into my life for a reason. It’s seriously one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself spiritually and creatively. My hubby bought me watercolor pencils for Christmas. Yes, even he believes I’m an artist!

    But I’m stuck, and mostly because I’ve been assigned to read my journals for the past few months.

    my journals

    Seriously? But I've got more writing to do!

  • Do more of what you love. Blogging is one of my favorite things, and I want to write more often. This requires me to be less of a perfectionist. I’ve set up my phone so that I can blog while I’m mobile, which will help because I am struck by inspiration most often when I’m not sitting in front of the computer. I know, crazy!

    Sunny Sanguinity is one of my true loves, and I want to spend more time with it. So fingers crossed, you’ll be seeing more posts in 2012 and maybe some upgrades around here. Thanks for reading and may you be filled with kindness, energy, bliss, joy and delicious food!

I’d rather be a scarecrow than a tin man


2011
11.20

In the past few weeks I’ve known a few people who’ve lost their dogs. My heart goes out to them. It’s like losing a member of the family as far as I’m concerned. One posted a status update about it to which one of their friends commented, “I have to put mine down too. But I just don’t have the courage to do it.”

I’ll excuse the status-jacking because it brought something to the front of my mind at the same time I had the power of the Internet at my fingertips. Y’see, the theme of courage has been running rampant through my head for months now.

It started with my reading of Suze Orman’s Women & Money. She writes that every wealthy woman has several qualities, one of which is courage. There were others that struck me first, like harmony and honesty, but lately courage has been the one on my mind. (By the way, I highly recommend that book to any woman. What an empowering, helpful set of instructions and encouragement!)

But another book brought forward this concept to me recently, and that’s The Artist’s Way. So I’ve been sort of inundated with this idea and it kinda made me uncomfortable.

When I think of courage, I can’t help but think of the cowardly lion in The Wizard of Oz. Poor thing was afraid of his shadow.

I’ve always associated courage with a lack of fear. And if you look it up in m-w.com, my favorite dictionary, you’ll find a similar definition that deals a lot with fear.

It’s not that I don’t think courage has anything to do with fear. It just seems like the definition is focusing on the wrong thing.

Anyone who tries new things and takes risks, who embodies courage, will tell you that you cannot escape fear. It’s part of the package. So why should courage really focus on your ability to do something despite that?

The beauty of the Internet is that there’s usually more than one source. I’m not the biggest fan of Dictionary.com, but it did offer me this tasty, albeit obsolete, definition of courage: the heart as the source of emotion.

OK, now this I get. I’ve been trying to approach courage from a logical perspective, but this isn’t a job for logic. Logic tells us to stay in our job when the economy is bad, even if it is draining our soul. Reasonable people don’t jump out of airplanes with parachutes strapped on their backs.

I Believe I can Fly ( flight of the frenchies) Trailer on Vimeo.

The desires of our hearts are what drive us forward, and pursuing those dreams feeds the soul. But to follow those dreams often runs counter to what’s logical. And that’s where courage comes in.

It takes courage to act from the heart and not the brain. It runs counter to what our culture and often times our families are telling us. But we know it to be the right thing to do, even if we can’t quite justify it or quantify it.

I’ve been focusing on listening to what my heart wants and then following through. I believe and trust that the Universe will support me if I have courage and follow my dreams. And I’m blessed to have a husband and friends who supports me in that as well.

I encourage you to listen to your heart and start exercising your courage, even in little ways. Dance to the elevator music. Sing while you’re walking the dog.

Listen to that little kid inside you that wants to skip down the sidewalk. The more often your courage is exercised, the stronger it will become. And suddenly that big leap you’ve secretly been wanting to take looks more like a puddle jump.

Once upon a time, things just worked out


2011
11.04

Earlier this week an older gentleman at the grocery store stopped me to tell me about how good life was. Well, first he asked how I was doing, and I said that life was rad.

He stopped and said, “I know. Things have just been going so well. Y’know how when things just always go right and you’re like ‘yeah.’” His head was nodding and he had the biggest smile on his face.

Smile!

(Michelle Brea/Flickr)

He told me he just couldn’t explain it really. The reason he stopped me was that he could see I was putting out the same vibe (I love Santa Cruz). I was thinking, Man you need a writer to explain that. Only later did it dawn on me that I was that writer.

I’ve discovered something so life-changing in the past week that everything has shifted. It started with synchronicity, which I’ve been keeping track of as part of my work with The Artist’s Way. But as I’ve noticed more and more synchronistic events, life has started to look different, almost like I’m in an alternate dimension.

Up is not down in this dimension, nor is black white or anything that extreme. Everything looks physically the same, although some things are shinier and others flat and superficial. The main thing about this alternate dimension is that everything just works out. 

I arrive on time for things even when I don’t leave when I “should.” My wallet wasn’t in my basket after our bike ride downtown for Halloween; it turns out I left it at home. And I still got to grab a drink even though every bar was carding at the door.

rebecca miss one percent

Because lord knows, Miss One Percent needs her evening cocktail.

When I started noticing this shift, something in my brain said to me: “You’ve walked through the portal. You’re in the dimension where everything works out now.”

I’ve dreamed about this portal and I’ve stumbled into this dimension before, but only accidentally and only for a short time. It’s frickin’ paradise. And let me tell you what I think the portal is: Trust.

Trust: the catalyst of the open source way

(Libby Levi/Flickr)

Oh, there’s some mindfulness involved too, but trust is key. Trust your intuition. Listen to your heart. Trust the Universe. Trust the people around you. Once you know that every person, every aspect of your life has got your back, things just fall into place and work out.

Now this isn’t happily ever after. I’m not saying that everything will be utopian. We’ve all still gotta be smart and use common sense.

What I mean is that as you learn to trust, the bigger picture becomes easier to digest, you become less attached to outcomes and life is lived fully. And that’s when you’re most open to big opportunities.

So what do you say? Wanna join me and the gentleman from the grocery store on the other side of the curtain? Take a leap through your portal and experience the world the way it was meant to be seen!

Day 4 of Reading Deprivation: Surprise!


2011
09.15

I love it when I tell the future. There has been more than once that my Tarot readings have helped out someone with my foretelling. (Is that a word? It is now.) Like when I told a guy he needed to apologize to his ex and then his life would rule. That guy ended up being my husband. Bonus!

In my last blog post I said that reading deprivation might drive me to chewing out the mailman and that it would result in my first vlog. Well, I didn’t run into any postal workers today but I did get the mail today, and there’s this:

Say what you want about this whole reading deprivation thing. It’s actually spurned a level of creation I haven’t seen since, well, ever. I have been thinking about vlogging for-EVER and just haven’t gotten around to it, mostly because I want to make it perfect.

Vlogging? DONE!

So even though I did cheat just a little —  I messaged everyone for my hubby’s birthday party on Facebook. (I did NOT click on my alerts or friend request. *high five*)

Oh, and my friend emailed me about an idea he had and I opened it. How could I not? It’s not my fault he writes compelling subject lines! But beyond that, my week has been cheat-free and I think I’m gonna make it.

Although I buried that Rolling Stone deep in my stack of magazines to avoid temptation.

 

 

Four of the five stages of grief in six hours


2011
09.12

Like I said in my last post, I love libraries. So it should pretty much go without saying that I’m a giant bookworm. I read on the bus, while I’m eating and even on the toilet. (What?!? I have a subscription to Rolling Stone. If you don’t read that every time you go to the bathroom, you fall seriously behind. Those magazines just keep coming.)

boat reading ms becca

Yeah, the lake is nice and all, but this book is *riveting.*

So imagine my shock, nay, my horror when I came upon the fourth chapter of The Artist’s Way, which mandates reading deprivation. For a week.

Of course, the first thing I do is go online and Google how other people dealt with it when I realized, Crap. I can’t read this.

Naturally I went to Facebook to post an update on how humorous/devastating this was, when it dawned on me that I couldn’t read any one else’s status updates. The same realization came with Twitter. And my friend Tori pointed out that the book was written before the information age, so of course it applies to blogs.

*whimper*

I’m still deciding whether this applies to TV. This, ladies and gentlemen, is bargaining, especially considering how I feel about television.

But. BUT! I can blog. Thank Jesus.

After the initial shock and denial wore off (I actually tried to tell myself I didn’t really read that much, so it wouldn’t be a big deal.), I find myself really kind of angry. There’s a line in the chapter that says after awhile you’ll run out of work and have to play (thus, creating art).

I feel the need to prove her wrong. No! I have plenty of work. The closets need organizing, the garden needs harvesting, we even have a BBQ this weekend, so I have to get ready for that. I’m tempted to create the world’s most giant to-do list to keep me busy all week. Too bad I burned my to-do list in Week 2. Arg!

burning paper

I don't regret it. Burning that list was liberating.

I’m a bit surprised at this. Why am I trying so hard to prove this woman I don’t know and have never met, wrong? And why wouldn’t I want to play, anyway?

The thing is, she’s right. I bury myself in books because I tell myself it’s productive and also an important part of being a writer. But I know the dark secret. It’s the easiest way to get out of being creative myself. I’m consuming, not creating.

God the truth hurts.

So at this point, I’ve harvested the garden, organized one of the three closets in our home and gotten the yard all cleaned up for the BBQ. It’s been about six hours since I got my week-long assignment.

Clock

But who's counting?

I’m slowly sinking into the depression stage of grief here. (Thank the Universe I didn’t go to the library to get the latest in the Percy Jackson series I’m reading.) There’s a blog I read every morning that really encourages me. Zen and the Art of Motorcycle Maintenance is my night-time companion. And you already know what I read while I’m brushing my teeth.

Will I get through this? Oh yes. I can’t resist a good challenge. But I feel like throwing a toddler temper tantrum right now. Maybe by my next blog, I’ll have reached the acceptance stage. Or maybe it’ll be my first vlog, in which I throw my books at the webcam and scream at the mailman for delivering the latest edition of Rolling Stone.

Have you ever done a media fast? Any advice for me? I’m desperate here!

Letter to the Jaberwocky


2011
08.26

A few weeks ago I wrote a letter to one of the champions in my life, my creative writing teacher. It’s part of this spiritual journey I’ve been on, via The Artist’s Way. It’s been a pretty rewarding experience. My intuition is on fire! I recommend it to anyone who wants to improve their art or become creative.

small peculiar comic artists way

Yeah. It's a lot like that in the first week. (Comic courtesy of Small Peculiar)

There are definitely things that have come up, however, that aren’t all roses. I’ve discovered that I’m a lot more skeptical than the optimist in me would like to believe. But even harder than accepting this is completing one of the activities from week one.

Y’see, just like there are champions of my artist, there are also monsters that haunt my artist. And as much as I’d like to say I’ve lived a charmed life without an enemy (No one’s life is that charmed.), I’m afraid I’ve had more than my fair share of monsters. Apparently they still hide in my closets, disguised as skeletons.

Monsters

So that same week I wrote to my creative writing teacher, I was supposed to write to one of my monsters. *shudder* I had no desire to do this. I wanted to forget them. And so I ignored that activity. But since the idea has entered my brain, it won’t stop scratching at me. Secretly, I guess I really wanted to write a letter or two.

So in much the same spirit as the last letter, I’m publishing this here. You know who you are. This letter is for you.

It’s been a long time since we’ve talked. I can’t believe you’d expect anything different. Weirdly, sometimes I wish I’d run into you. Mostly because I’m awesome. And I know it now, so I could stand up to you and all of your evil words and actions.

Part of me wishes I could erase you from my memory, a la Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, but I know better. The things you said to me and about me hurt. Your actions made me afraid. But they also made me stronger and the person I am today.

I’d like to think you’re sorry now. That you feel awful for how you treated me. On my more vengeful days, I’d wish that you were physically hurt. I own a baseball bat and while I’m breaking things, I’ve seen your face. Do you realize what kind of damage you did to me?

For god’s sake, I write more now in a month than I did in the years you told me what a pathetic waste of energy I was. Even my blog suffered in the beginning because I was afraid of your judgment. I was 26.

rebecca grass 2006

I know. I *look* like I have it all figured out.

But this isn’t about me, is it?

Your soul is broken. Your artist is stifled. You’ve been abused. You saw in me what was broken, stifled and abused in you. And you were jealous, angry and destructive. So you lashed out.

Tear

I’ve prayed for you. I’ve cried for your soul. Call me a glutton for punishment, but I believe there is good in you. In fact, I know there is. There is a light inside you that wants to burst out. That you connect with it and allow it, for this I pray.

Know this: I forgive you. I understand that the way you treat me is nothing compared to the way you treat yourself.  I wish you nothing but success in your psychic recovery.

But also know this: I am not here to facilitate your psychic recovery. I’m not interested in rehashing the past and making you feel better about what you did. I’ve done bad things in my life, and I’ve faced them. It’s not fun or easy, but no one else can do it for you. May your journey be blessed no matter what the path you take.

No longer your punching bag,

Rebecca

Letter to a champion


2011
08.07

When was the last time someone complimented you or encouraged you? Lately, for me, it’s been a feast, which I really appreciate. And I welcome it, because it wasn’t always that way.

I was given a book recently called The Artist’s Way: A Spiritual Path to Higher Creativity. Initially I was a little turned off by the whole thing — calling myself an artist is a new thing for me, and adding spirituality into the mix made me nervous. But considering the book fulfilled several parts of my mission statement in life and was dropped in my lap (twice), I figured I’d give it a shot.

One exercise it suggested was to write a letter to someone who had championed the artist part of me, someone who encouraged me in my art. There isn’t a doubt in my mind who that person was: my high school creative writing teacher, Mark Tonyan.

I’ve been trying to figure out a way to send him a letter for years to thank him, but even in this age of Facebook and LinkedIn, my searches have come up short. I’m not surprised, really.

open minded neighborhood

So instead of wasting my time trying to find him online, I figured I would thank him (and ALL the champions of artists everywhere) via blog:

Hi Mr. Tonyan,

I hope you’re doing well and life has blessed you. It’s been awhile since I’ve spoken with you, probably since 1998 when I graduated from high school and went on to community college hoping to be a math teacher. Perplexing choice, I know.

The reason I’m writing is to say thank you, thank you thank you, for being a wonderful writing teacher and a great encouragement in my life as a writer. Honestly, your class opened me up to a world that I would’ve otherwise never been exposed to. And I wasn’t even supposed to be, really. It went against what I was taught to skip the AP English class in favor of a creative writing class (Do you know what that will do to your GPA?), but I’m fairly certain it saved my life.

If I hadn’t had an outlet for what I went through my senior year — heartbreak, knee surgery, being kicked around by a group of insecure guys, and then just the usual high school BS — my life would’ve probably turned out very differently. In fact, before a few years ago, the only time I really wrote was during the difficult periods of my life.

Writing certainly wasn’t on my radar in high school, or even in college, but somehow I graduated with a journalism degree, which gave me opportunity to write, although newspaper wasn’t really what I wanted to do. It wasn’t until I lived alone and started writing again like you taught us in creative writing, that I really got it.

My spiritual awakening came while I was writing. My soul joined my body in the middle of a rant about Led Zepplin and mythology, which would later become the basis of my first novel, written in a month with NANOWRIMO. I would have never done that if it weren’t for you telling me my writing was good, that I was talented.

I’m pretty sure one of the first amusing quotes I ever wrote down came from you: “Staplers come and go in this life…” Now I’ve got books of quotes from people that crack me up. I’ve always got a notebook in my purse to record the ridiculous things people say. It helps create dialogue in my novels. That’s how things like: “I’m in dousche-bag rehab,” end up in my writing. You just can’t make that up!

Deep down, I was meant to be a writer, but without your class and your encouragement I don’t think it would’ve been as obvious to me. (I mean, even with your class it took me years to figure out.) Thank you so much for encouraging me and teaching me how to be a writer. And thank you for all you’ve done for other students over the years. I know that my life wasn’t the only one you touched.

May your life be filled with love, light and blessings from all the good you’ve done for others,

Rebecca Watson

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Has someone given you encouragement or helped you be the person you are today? Say thanks!

High five!

High-five!

Even if it feels like it was the smallest thing, I think it’s important that people who are doing good hear it. And it feels good to say it too. Thank you to everyone that has encouraged me and helped me on my path as an artist. Your words and deeds are welcome changes in the landscape that can often be long and lonely.

 

You can read another letter I’ve written to my 18-year-old self, if you’re so inclined.

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